Over the past thirty years I have pursued my passion for understanding why people behave the way they do. I wanted to know if or how they could choose to behave differently when their behavior hadn't brought them the results they desired. As you can imagine, my search was spurred on by my personal desire to apply this understanding to my own life first.
I have felt like an explorer trying to map my experiences and to be able to find my way back to my own "home", that place of peace, security, and contentment that I frankly had never known consistently in this life.
My family had planted a belief-seed that things could be made better through increased understanding. So my search has involved lots of information in the way of books, workshops, classes, sessions, seminars, and personal exercises, travels, and experiences, and study.
Unlike explorers Lewis or Clark, I don't expect to find a natural stopping point in my search. In other words, I don't expect to find 'the' single best route to anywhere or an 'ocean' that would stop me. In fact, I don't like it when people or schools of thought or groups proclaim that they are 'the only way.' History is littered with the bodies of the victims of 'the-only-way-ers.'
I was looking for something different. I wanted to find a workable, replicable, easy-to-grasp route that I could use and share with others who have similar impulses to explore how to create the lives they want.
This journey is about developing trust in what can be trusted and how to know what those things are. We all have experiences of what happens when we trust the untrustworthy. Those lessons should bring us to find a better way to discern what is trustworthy rather than shutting down our sense of trust altogether.
In the course of my battles with my own emotions, thought processes, and physical reactions to a wide variety of situations, it started occurring to me that a lot of peoples' efforts went into solving the wrong problems. Symptoms of problems were often seen as the problem so root causes were not dealt with.
An old saying goes like this, "If the only tool you have is a hammer, you will tend to see all problems as nails." Having attended Pharmacy School I saw the single-minded focus on prescription drugs as the solutions to a wide variety of symptoms which were labeled as the problems.
A lot of years later, one of my mentors, explaining the US over-reliance on drugs and surgery, said to me, "The medical profession tends to see people as either having too few chemicals or too many body parts." If this weren't so true, it would be even funnier!
When I was in the United States Army I wondered why some of us enjoyed jumping out of airplanes as paratroopers while other people saw that behavior as terrifying. On the other hand, some things that others did regularly seemed terrifying to even the most courageous Special Forces soldier.
It became clear to me that the issue was way beyond the concept of willpower. Or intelligence. My search took me through the body then the mind and then the emotions. I finally arrived at the energetic level or spiritual level.
Maybe I was more like Lewis & Clark than I thought. To me I was having new discoveries but in reality many people have already tread this path. The basis of lots of energy work has been going on in China and other parts of the East for 5,000 years! L & C certainly encountered Native Americans who were totally familiar with the path they were seeking.
Once I started looking at the energetic level as the place to adjust, correct, modify, influence, etc., the issues, problems, symptoms that both my clients and I were dealing with, the results started to amaze us. In fact, in 1980 I was taught a physical technique to help the body heal from physical injuries and surgeries. Applying this technique, called "Touch Assist" led to children and adults, myself included, healing without bruising, scarring, or emotional residue. Energy balancing let the body do what it was built to do--restore itself!
At the risk of belabor the metaphor, many people were my Sacajaweas. To them I am grateful. Their friendships and influences mean a great deal to me. The bottom line, as far as I can tell, is that relationships are everything -- our relationship to ourselves and to what and who were really are; our relationships to other people, and to things. It seems pretty clear that these relationships are indicative of how we relate to whatever name we give to our God.
Here, then is the place I now am in terms of my search, which by the way continues.